You may write me down in history
with your bitter, twisted lies,
you may trod me in the very dirt
But still, like dust, I’ll rise.

Does my sassiness upset you?
Why are you beset with gloom?
‘Cause I walk like I’ve got oil wells
Pumping in my living room.

Just like moons and like suns,
With the certainty of tides,
Just like hopes springing high,
Still I’ll rise.

Does my haughtiness offend you?
Don’t you take it awful hard
‘Cause I laugh like I’ve got gold mines
Diggin’ in my own back yard.

You may shoot me with your words,
You may cut me with your eyes,
You may kill me with your hatefulness,
But still, like air, I’ll rise.

I have had some struggles recently. See in high school I was well known, well liked, and kind of well… important. It is harder to feel the same here, because it is so much bigger than high school (about 8000 more people). See I come from a small town of Mount Juliet, Tennessee where I knew everyone and everyone knew me. And that drove me insane! So I sunk into that freshman depression… yeah we have all heard about it or experienced it in some way. I felt abandoned, unloved, and honestly I missed my mommy!! I just wanted to crawl into a hole and live there.

Then I realized that that is not who I am. That brings me to the poem that my mothers use to recite to me when I was feeling down and she read it to me when I needed to know just how special I really am. That poem is Phenomenal Woman by Maya Angelou. See she writes about how things and people in life will want to put you down but you cannot let them. You have to rise above whatever it is and prosper. And at some point during the night my mother called me and she asked if I was alright. I broke down into tears on the phone with her. How she knew that I was feeling terrible I have no idea (I think it’s the secret ESP that mothers have with their children ♥). She read this to me and told me “that no matter what remember to rise from any occasion and be the VERY best that you can be, I raised you to know that you can go through anything in life with the lord and courage.” And that is what I did… I rose.

It is funny how talking to your mother can fix any situation you may be going through in life. How she can say one thing and you just feel like she has cured you of whatever it was that was bothering you, but to them they just stuck a band-aid on another one of your boo-boos ♥.

I took what my mother said and I got involved. I am now so much happier. As I wrote in my first blog I am a senator on Freshman senate here at UTC and now I am the Committee Chairwoman for Entertainment!!! ♥♥This was so great to hear when Freshman President Ashley called me and told me! Immediately I called my mother and told her the news. She proceeded to speak about just how right she was and did her little I told you so song and dance &heart;. She also did not fail to mention how I need to make sure that I stay involved in my studies because after all it is why I am here at UTC.

Earlier that day I had to attend an interview process so that I would be up for getting the position, it was EXTREMELY never wrecking for the sole purpose that fellow senators or the executive board as they are respectively called were going to be the ones conducting the interview. I can handle if it had been SGA president Tyler Forrest or anyone who was of high power, but for some reason knowing it was a fellow freshman made me nervous HAHA now looking back on it I feel a little ridiculous that I was as nervous as I was. So now I am officially a title holder in Freshman Senate!!!

Also for the duration of the course of the month of September I interviewed to be a part of The A-Team here at UTC. The A-Team stands for the Admissions Team sadly Mr. T will not be there J. It is a group of students who will help the admissions department out in there major Prospective MOCS activities such as Freshman Friday and just anything that involves telling incoming freshman how much we love UTC telling them what we have gone through and giving them just a sense of relief that they will love it!! I am extremely excited to be a part of this organization and I cannot wait until we all meet and become great friends.

To switch gears here I have made some great friends on campus. My old Chattanoogan roommate Megan and I have become even closer to each other. I have made bonds with her and my friend Amber. I met Amber at orientation and through the grace of God we found one another on campus and are still friends. We are all going to be Disney Princesses for Halloween! Megan is going to be Snow White, Amber is going to be Belle from Beauty and the Beast and I am going to be Princess Tatiana from The new Disney Movie The Princess and the Frog. This should be one of the best Halloween’s ever!!!!

So far I am back on track and UTC is still an amazing place. I meet different people every day and I make new friends as much as I can. I have strengthened friendships over this past month and became closer to the Lord and my family. Now as I look out the window of the library computer and see the mountains and the trees and just the overall beauty of Chattanooga… I am glad that I am here, and wouldn’t change it for anything in the world!! I AM A UTC MOC!! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

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